Alopecia can be a pretty devastating condition to develop. I don’t think anyone can truly appreciate how a condition that changes your appearance without your control can really affect you mentally, without it happening to you personally. After all, it’s just hair.
Over the years, I have changed my hair drastically from the bleached blonde, pixie cut I had in my student years to the long, orange hair in my time working as a bartender. My hair has always been a massive part of my personality and self-esteem. It has changed many times, but all with my choice. I think that is the most difficult thing about alopecia. The lack of control. No one likes to feel like they are lacking control in life.
I hit a low in September and just hated what I saw in the mirror. It was around this time that I took the plunge and had my hair shaved off. I thought that when it happened I would feel sad but more than that I felt relieved. I was no longer seeing clumps of hair in bath, on my pillow and falling down my clothes. Losing my hair was harder than having none!
Now 8 months on i’m finally having a bit of regrowth and again this terrifies me. I got so used to not having hair but at the Same time I want to see what happens! As well though is that nagging fear that it’ll grow back and fall out all over again! We’ll just have to wait and see I suppose! For now I do have some fab wigs! Thanks to the amazing Zella Rose Wigs!
Anyway I think I am done rambling. I’ve had this post half written in my drafts for about 3 months and I have just felt that I am at the right point to finish it off and post it. I am very lucky to have a child that loves me and a very supportive family around me 😘
Thanks For reading,